Signs

I'm very spiritual these days- I admit, I really leaned into it in a moment of necessity, and I'm since learning to hold it with me no matter what. One thing I notice when I'm educating myself and holding my beliefs close to my chest is that the universe loves to give little signs.

One sign I notice the most is "angel numbers." Often (generally at least once a day), I'll notice the time is 2:22, or the mileage on my car is 333, etc. When I notice this, I make a wish- even if it's not the traditional "wish making" time of 11:11. I feel connected to the rest of the universe when these repeating numbers jump out at me, so I feel inclined to set an intention.

The other day, I was journaling on my back patio. I asked the universe to give me a "sign" or a nudge... I shit you not, a bird (a robin, I think) flew RIGHT AT ME. This was equally terrifying, as I had to dodge it, and hilarious. I watched as the bird landed in the grass behind me, and had a good laugh. Of course I took that as a sign... not necessarily a revealing one, but a sign that the universe was listening.

On Sunday, I was having a rough go at it internally. It was a beautiful evening, so I took a blanket and my airpods to the park. I sat down, once again talked out loud to the sky, and the brightest cardinal perched right on a branch closeby. It sat there calmly for a few minutes, and its presence soothed me.

During the full moon a few nights ago, I was doing the same. Talking out loud to the moon on my patio, asking for a sign. At that exact moment, my best friend Madi texted me. That was a very clear one to me- love is all around me and in my life. No matter what my soul is feeling or going through, there is support to be found and to seek solace in.

This Tuesday, I was going on my lunch break from work and decided to run home to make some quick scrambled eggs. I pulled out of the plaza, and a particular ex-boyfriend of mine pulled out of a gas station and was right in front of me. This has happened with us many times- a particularly telling one was last Summer. I was going on a Tinder date (lovely man, but not compatible), and on my way, the same ex-boyfriend and I both pulled up to the same intersection. One night after a live comedy/magic show with a friend, we walked to Covington and ran into him on the street. I swear I'm not stalking him, I think the universe just likes to tease us. We were on the phone recently and I noted, "it's 2:22 AM." He said "right when you said that, we had been on the phone for 11 minutes and 11 seconds." Spooky.

It's easy to write these off and say "of course you're going to notice these things and make them into signs if you're actively looking for them." To that I say- perhaps. Or, perhaps being in touch with the universe in a stronger way than ever is opening up the possibilities of these signs revealing themselves to me, making me more susceptible to them. When they happen, I feel like I'm on the right path, or that everything is working in my favor. It's comforting, really, if at times a little freaky.